I am....

I am....

a child of God

an independent woman

a sister

a daughter of my earthly father

a friend

a lover of life and of love and of everything good in this world

a hand to those in need.....

one who worships the Lord

one who suffers for those in pain, who rejoices with those in times of truimphant

one who loves children and animals and will do all in her power to protect them

a teacher

a student

simple yet complex

happy and sad

loved and in love

confused and amazed each day by the awesome works of my Lord God Almighty.....

I am wonderfully and beautifully made... Psalms 139

Angels Watching Over Me

The father of one of my best friends passed away this past weekend. As I was following her and my other best friend to her house this song kept playing through my head. During the hours since I left her exhausted and asleep on her couch I have come to realize that this song really reflects my view of where our loved ones are and what they are doing. I know that her dad and my mom though they never met this side of heaven are up there watching over all of us. Rest in peace Aaron and Mom and all those who have gone ahead.

ANGELS WATCHING OVER ME
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All night, all day,
Angels watching over me, my Lord.
All night, all day,
Angels watching over me.
Sun is a-setting in the West;
Angels watching over me, my Lord.

Sleep my child, take your rest;
Angels watching over me.
All night, all day,
Angels watching over me, my Lord.
All night, all day,
Angels watching over me.

Psalm 23

Psalm 23

The Lord is my Shepherd = That's Relationship!

I shall not want = That's Supply!

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures = That's Rest!

He leadeth me beside the still waters = That's Refreshment!

He restoreth my soul = That's Healing!

He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness = That's Guidance!

For His name sake = That's Purpose!

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death = That's Testing!

I will fear no evil = That's Protection!

For Thou art with me = That's Faithfulness!

Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me = That's Discipline!

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies = That's Hope!

Thou annointest my head with oil = That's Consecration!

My cup runneth over = That's Abundance!

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life = That's Blessing !

And I will dwell in the house of the Lord = That's Security!

Forever = That's Eternity!

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Scattered

There are a lot of things going on in my life right now and I'm feeling scattered. For someone who values her quiet time and protects it, I haven't had much of it lately. Back over the Memorial Day weekend my 18 year old sister came to live with me. It is very interesting living with her especially in a one bedroom apartment. This is the first time we have lived with each other. With a 20 year age difference I had moved out before she moved in with my parents, so other than the occasional Christmas and spring breaks we haven't really spent a lot of time together. She has been drifting in and out of my apartment since January and has finally decided to stick or at least so it seems. And while I want to do whatever I can to help her it has been and continues to be a challenge living with someone so young, who has a different outlook on life. She is all about having the social stuff and while I enjoy hanging out with my friends I've gone through my "wild" days of drinking, partying and staying out all night. My wild nights now a days include playing cards and board games with my friends or dinner and a movie with my boyfriend and home in bed by midnight at the latest. I love my sister and I want to do what's best but sometimes I feel so inept in guiding her, in helping her to grow as a person... I feel like the role of parent has been thrust upon me... I never desired to be a parent and find myself ill equipped to handle this role the Lord has given me. I pray that the Lord will give me the strength to guide this young soul, the patience to handle whatever challenges come and the words to speak when needed.

When I sat down to write this, this is not what I had in mind to write about... but these are the words that came out... Only time will tell...Only time will tell what will come and years from now when I look back on this time I hope and pray that I have done my job well.

Wishes made....

Wishes made....

By blowing petals off a flower,

By blowing out all the candles,

Or perhaps a wish upon a falling star.
Wishes made in the bright spring light,

or in the lingering darkness of the night.

Wishes made in childhood.

Wishes made with love so bright.

Wishes made with hearts so frail.

Fade as I grow,

Into adulthood so fair.
I wish I may,

I wish I might,

Have this wish I wish tonight...

Wishes made....

Wither and die,

consumed this day,

as I begin to see.

Hopes and dreams once so bright,

hidden now,

behind....

stacks of bills and,

unkind words.

Until I no longer wish,

to hope or dream,

but shuffle daily through,

With eyes downcast,

And shoulders bent,

With a sigh I linger on.

One day,

I see,

The smile upon another's face,

A small child blows upon the petals of a flower,

Makes a wish,

And reminds me of a time,

When I did the same,

Lights a fire within,

To hope,

To dream,

To wish,

Once again.

K. Teale 6/10/2008

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